I just reblogged a post about how Emma and Killian were VERY CLEARLY their worst selves in this episode. It’s not a mystery or intended to be particularly subtle. One episode after believing in herself, that she had a lot of people who loved her, that she was going to save Henry, get the lost boys home, etc, Emma has turned straight back into Lost Girl Emma, who believes that the savior doesn’t get any moments where it’s all right, that life is just a series of bad things/fights one after another (it’s not a coincidence that she was wearing her season 1 red leather jacket, her emotional armor, her walls) and that her parents don’t understand her and she has to go be alone at the docks and she’s losing Henry and she jumps to conclusions about Hook and Tink and is jealous (and wrong) and so on. Killian on the other hand is drinking all night, making desperate half-assed attempts to hit on Tink that are IMMEDIATELY SHOT DOWN FOR BEING SO OBVIOUSLY WHAT THEY ARE, and hiding behind his walls and being Hook the innuendo pirate. This was the first episode they were apart in any way all season, and they’re still in the same place together! And they were batshit donkeydong hotfucking MISERABLE!
So why is it that people scream when Hook’s “not villain enough” anymore, and now they’re screaming when after 9 episodes of utter selflessness and giving his own happiness up and doing everything to help them find Henry (remember, his contribution was not acknowledged in any way, he got them home and there are all these happy reunions and he’s the total fish out of water just standing there watching these families without anything of his own) THE MAN HAS A MOMENT OF SELFISHNESS AND DARKNESS AND DOUBT? What, is he now supposed to be some paragon of perfect virtue, but he can’t be TOO VIRTUOUS because they’re ruining his character omg?! CAN HOOK NOT DO ANYTHING RIGHT? HE CAN’T BE GOOD AND THEN HE CAN’T BE BROKEN AND WHAT CAN HE BE? Good LORD. This double-standard for everything he does is INSANE! And he didn’t plan on meeting Tink.It’s not like he was trying to set the whole thing up on purpose. He ran into her, tried to distract himself, panicked when he heard a woman scream, ran out and saw Emma, and then when SHE jumped to conclusions and got jealous, made the WORLD’S WORST ATTEMPT to be like SO YEAH WHAT IF WE DID DOES THAT BOTHER YOU? He’s pushing back on her the way he always does a little, but he’s also drunk off his ass and heartbroken and thinking he’s going to be alone again, and he’s SICK OF THAT. He’s seen what could be with Emma, and now he might lose that, and even if he’s doing the right thing, it SUCKS!
So basically, my Killian-stan heart is roused to battle and is hissing and fighting off all this nonsense, while simultaneously wrapping him in a blanket and cooing and putting him into his goofy little IKEA bed on the JR and telling him that it’s okay and Emma will choose him. Because I have a lot of feelings for him. And yeah.
- Together: Encouraged by Killian; Emma believes that she can do it, believes in herself and believes she can get the happy ending and save Henry
- Apart: loses hope and faith in herself and the possibility of ever being happy.
- Together: Honorable, selfless, he doesn’t drink, and his innuendos are basically non existent.
- Apart: reverts to drinking constantly and hiding behind his walls by flirting with Tink, which could also be considered a selfish act of trying to kill the pain of “losing Emma”.
True love brings out the best in people, loss of it bring out the worst.
Yeah… I was disappointed in Neal as well. I didn’t dislike him in this episode; I found most of his scenes actually quite enjoyable, which is not always the case. He was even kind of cute trying to ask Emma out. But it also couldn’t have been clearer in this episode how much he was serving as an obstacle to Captain Swan. Emma needs some time without Killian three feet away from each other to realize how much she doesn’t like it, and how else to accomplish this than by having him step aside “for Henry’s sake” to give Neal a chance? Neal shrugs, says, “thanks dude” completely obliviously, and goes off immediately to give Emma an ultimatum: LUNCH TOMORROW OR YOU’LL LOSE ME AGAIN FOREVER! Because Plot Device Neal needed to be Plot Device Neal to push forward the angst between Killian and Emma, he therefore didn’t get the character development moment we wanted for him. It’s also kind of funny how ridiculously obvious it is that HE IS THE ONLY OBSTACLE BETWEEN KILLIAN AND EMMA. Once that’s resolved, they’re pretty much going to warp-speed into each other’s arms (and possibly even before then). So since that’s the case, he has to continue to fulfill the role of roadblock.
It’s kind of sad. Like, I really do want to like Neal; he’s grown on me a bit and I like his interactions with everyone who isn’t Emma. But because he is so CLEARLY pigeonholed as the third party/dramatic tension-builder/angst-causer in the Captain Swan relationship, he’s being held back from development until it’s convenient to the plot. When Emma and Killian are ready to face their feelings and become a couple, Neal will then magically be discovered to be all right with it and step out of the way, but his actions are directed by theirs, not vice versa. His reactions are dictated according to what other characters need from him.
(because what else are we going to do until next Sunday but neurotically rock in a corner and speculate am I right)
On the one hand, the rational, logical part of my brain thinks we’re probably not getting a kiss. The ongoing Hook/Emma/Neal thing is obviously a potential plot point for the second half of the season that’s likely not going to be neatly tied up one episode after it was focused on. Having Emma kiss Hook in this scenario, no matter what the characters say about it, would make it pRETTY F’N OBVIOUS to the audience that this train is only going one way, and hence kill some of the dramatic tension IF LOOKED AT FROM A CERTAIN LIGHT (the idea that this is a traditional love triangle and thence is going to be dragged out… which it’s not). Besides, there’s enough going on with the new curse and the building arc for the second half of the season, so a kiss might not be likely in terms of the fact that Hook’s promised (however badly) to back off and give Neal a chance, and Emma still hasn’t made her choice yet and is struggling with the fact that, you know, everybody might be about to die and/or forget everything. In this case, smoochies are not going to be either one’s priority.
ON THE OTHER HAND:
Considering that they took the time to spotlight Emma and Hook together in the promo, gazing at each other sadly and lovingly, very close together, I feel as if this might not be an entirely unreasonable expectation. In fact, if you think about it, it makes a lot of sense. We already know that when Emma is in a heightened emotional state, she’ll do and say things she wouldn’t ordinarily. What if this time Killian says “As you wish” for the third time, she realizes she loves him too (even if she doesn’t say it out loud, we would see it on her face) and calls him by his real name? (Remember, she did the same thing with Snow and Charming, calling them mom and dad.) In that case, if they think they’re going to lose each other, even without a kiss (which is still entirely possible) it would be made very obvious how they BOTH feel about each other. 3x10 was setting the groundwork for that. Emma’s world collapsed a little when she even had the remotest suspicion that Hook might be with Tink (and she clearly went to the docks to talk about her suspicions of Henry with him. She wanted to find him there since she knew he’d believe her. If she just wanted to think about Henry, she’d have gone to his castle; it was pointed out explicitly in the scene with Henry!Pan as the place where they bonded). Emma clearly had an oh-shit moment with that. Whereas she, knowing that Neal had promised not to ask her out again if she didn’t meet him for lunch (we’ll see how that works….) still didn’t want to go to Granny’s and do that. Charming had to come and drag her over, and she referred to it as “pushing” and thought he was trying to keep her away from Hook. Emma bb… your feels are showing.
Also, think of this: last time Emma said “I love you” to a man, it was Neal and she lost him immediately afterwards. What if this time, she has a moment with Killian and then doesn’t lose him? We know they’re going to New York together, and that after that, Killian probably ends up in the EF with the rest of the gang (I think they’re going with memories intact, instead of being stuck in Storybrooke with memories erased, because of the spoiler pictures of Rumple stabbing Pan and all of them in their EF getups). It would still be a separation, but it would break the pattern of Emma immediately losing someone after she realizes/says she loves them. Killian would still be with her long enough to fight for her and help protect her and make it CLEAR that this is only temporary (“what’s twenty-eight years when you have true love?” STABS SELF IN FACE). So whatever heartfelt moment they’re having in the promo, which very likely COULD INCLUDE a kiss (even just on the cheek or something) or her calling him Killian or him saying as you wish the third time or her having an epiphany, IS NOT FOLLOWED BY THEM IMMEDIATELY BEING SEPARATED. This time, Emma’s going to realize she loves a man and have to deal with the consequences while he’s still there.
Also, this is still not a love triangle. Neal basically said he’d give up if Emma didn’t meet him for lunch, in the same episode where Killian reminded him and the audience that he’s in it to win it. Neal is pressuring Emma to make a decision IMMEDIATELY and telling her that even if she did have some interest in working it out, she needs to do it now or she’ll lose her chance. Killian is stepping back (and is drunk, heartbroken, and miserable because of it, but he’s still doing it). When Emma rejects this, we are shown (as I wrote last night) how UNHAPPY these two people are at the idea that they might not be together. Remember how if you’re not with the person you’re supposed to be with, it ruins both your lives? That was made EXTREMELY clear. Emma and Killian are NOT HAPPY without each other. So in that case, if they both think they’re about to lose each other… it’s very possible we’re going to get a big romantic moment. It might include a kiss, it might not, but either way, this isn’t going to be a traditional love triangle that’s drawn out and where Emma’s torn between two men. BECAUSE SHE’S NOT.
She’s in love with Killian Jones, and he’s MADLY in love with her. And in crunch time, just as in 2x22 last season, I can definitely see that being realized.
okay i think i need to go to bed, i am falling asleep over my laptop
(nothing will ever be all right again uNTIL NEXT WEEK AND THEN THEY WILL AGGRESSIVELY NOT BE ALL RIGHT FOR THREE MONTHS)
NO YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND!
EMMA WAS SITTING BY THE DOCKS, PROBABLY WANTING TO MEET HOOK.
AND HE WAS AT GRANNY’S, WHERE EMMA WAS SUPPOSED TO BE.
DON’T TOUCH ME.
Yeah, like, HE WAS JUST WANDERING AROUND DRUNK AND HEARTBROKEN and they run into each other and he makes a poor life choice and she shoots him the fuck down, and then the INSTANT he hears a woman screaming, he panics and runs away from Tink without a second glance, and sees Emma who then sees him and she puts her back out jumping to conclusions, and Tink is like NO WHAT THE HELL and Killian is “PERHAPS” (ugh bb I have too many feelings). It wasn’t planned at all, and Tink wasn’t going to let him get away with it. She’s well aware he’s being drunk and pathetic and miserable and that he can’t stop thinking about Emma (and remember, she wasn’t around for the kiss or the love confession or any of that. And yet she ALREADY KNOWS that it’s Emma. Ms. Matchmaking True Love Fairy. Hmmm.)
LIKE, I LOVE HENRY AND OBVIOUSLY THEY’RE NOT GOING TO REPLACE JARED WITH ROBBIE AND TO JUDGE BY THE PROMO AND THE SPOILER PICTURES, IT LOOKS LIKE THEY GET THAT LITTLE DIFFICULTY SORTED OUT FAIRLY QUICKLY
BUT I CAN’T DENY THAT I COMPLETELY LOVED THE VISUAL OF EMMA AND SNOWING AND NEAL AND REGINA ALL HUGGING PAN WHO WAS ACTUALLY HENRY
IT WAS JUST REALLY AWESOME
PLUS I WILL CRY IF ROBBIE GOES AWAY, NOT BECAUSE OF PAN, PAN IS A LITTLE SHIT AND HE’S FUCKING TERRIBLE AND AWFUL, BUT HE’S… YOU KNOW… OUR LITTLE SHIT
Like, I know we’re all talking about it, but this entire episode was showing us HOW COMPLETELY FUCKING MISERABLE Killian is at the idea that he’s going to have to do this horrible, hard, heartbreaking thing himself, and give Emma a chance to completely reject him. As I said in my post earlier, this is where we see him drinking and being heartbroken and half-assing his attempt with Tink, and otherwise being completely not all right at the idea of it. He’s heartsick at the idea of being alone another 300 years, which is very much a possibility because it took him that long to get over Milah. Here is a man who is so fundamentally defined by who he loves and serves, making the choice to possibly go without if Emma wants it. He’s completely justified in not being Mr. A+ Shining Hero. He’s a wreck. He’s NOT ALL RIGHT AT ALL. No matter what he says, he knows he can’t move on from Emma, and this time it won’t be the fault of a corrupt king taking Liam, or a crocodile taking Milah. This time it will be all him.
And I can guarantee that when Killian looks into that darkness, there’s pretty much nothing he sees staring back. He can’t even IMAGINE what his life would be like without Emma, and now he suddenly HAS TO. And he’s probably wondering if honor, if doing the right thing, if offering Henry’s parents a chance to be back together for duty (oh hello more David/Kathryn/MM parallels) is worth the fact that it is going to completely fucking destroy him.
I am dead of Killian feels tonight in other words.